Um. Life has been so packed nowadays. College, relationship, home... I don't want to blog further about it. Some people might know, some people might not know. I don't think I can go on with Bernard anymore.. that's all I can say. I think my heart has changed, just bcos......

I'm really falling for you,
I hate what you're putting me through,
What have you done to me now?
I just can't sleep at night,
My bed is wet don't know how,
Will someone please turn on the light?

I think of closing down my blog once again. Or maybe I will be be gone for a period of time. I will be back when I'm ready. When I'm ready to face my own life, when I'm ready to tell the world what's happening to me. I hate myself, seriously. I'm being bad, yay, I'm not a good girl. I hate to be lied yet I'm the one who lied. I feel like shooting myself to death but as a normal malaysian citizen, I can't own a gun. There is no shop nearby for me to get one, too.

WSIS, if you get to see this, I wanna tell you, I'm serious so I hope you're serious, too. Aah, you won't be seeing this anyway. ILY!