My new relationship has been horrible to me. Everyone said he's just fooling around with me, they said we won't last long. Yay, we just broke up today. He told me stuff that really hurts me alot. But still, I wish him luck in everything.

My friends whom will be reading this, I know you guys have been there for me when I'm down, and I know you guys are just concern about me when you guys asked me to just forget everything about this relationship since he's just a playboy and I'm just being another victim.

For now, I don't want to get into another relationship cos I think it's really troublesome to start falling in love again. I can just honestly tell you guys that I don't love him, I like him alot only. If I loved him, I will just have cut myself now and I won't be here blogging all these shits that he will never ever get to read it. I will never ever love a guy until we get into a serious relationship.

People, you're not me. So you won't understand how I feel and what I'm trying to say here. I hope I can find a guy that is serious with me one day yet I don't want it now? Urgh. Stupid me. Bernard did phoned me and he wanted to get back, but I really don't want to lie to him again. WSIS is the guy I like now and the guy I wanted to be with now, that's it. Call me stubborn. Call me stupid. Call me bodoh. Call me baka. Whichever you prefer, it's up to you. All you guys know is, I know him from friendster, I met him in college, we got together just in a few days, nah, it's not your relationship, so you won't get to know about us. So stop saying bad things about me behind. But if you still want to talk about it, then you're never a friend of mine. A friend don't critize you, a friend concerns about you.

I'm glad that me and him are still friends. I'm glad that I can take everything calmly without being immature like cutting myself, crying and begging him. What I told him is - I want to be his friend once again and start everything all over again. Cos I know we're pushing so fast and rushing into this relationship before we really get to know each other well. So ended up, I disappointed him and he disappointed me.

He still loves his ten-months-together-girlfriend......