Have you ever bothered to realize how much you mean to me,
I care so much for you inside and miss you so deeply,
My mind is always so curious about the way things might have been,
As days go by and times go on I look back once again,
On those times you took me right into your arms,
I felt so safe and special,
You comforting me with all your charm,
Every little kiss from you was like a dream come true,
This love I have inside my heart it all belongs to you,
Its funny all those little things I never thought Id miss,
Like those little conversations we had,
Or the first time we kissed,
I guess what Im trying to tell you is I miss you more each day,
It hurts me to know that Im just a friend for you now,
I want you to understand that I liked you from the start,
And I want you to know no matter what,
Youll always have place in my heart,
I wish I had a picture of us together,
To remind me of how I thought forever,
Was more than just a word we said,
I can never get you out of my head,
I find myself thinking of you all the time,
And I wonder if loving you is such a crime,
I know that I messed up and made mistakes,
But I still think we have what it takes,
To overcome the things weve done,
Maybe we could even bring out the sun,
Though Im forgetting that you dont really care,
If only love wasnt so unfair,
I sit at home these days on my own,
With a heart heavy and cold as stone,
In my room on the sofa listening to songs that make me cry,
I sit there and long for a reason why,
I always have to be so alone,
And Im always holding my cellphone,
Wanting to text you but not being able to do so,
You did text me almost every night,
But Im still missing you,
Wishing I could tell you how much I miss you,
Not that kind of miss that I havent seen you in a while,
But that kind of miss that I wish you were here at this very moment,
Always wondering if youre okay,
Hoping that youll be happy everyday,
I wish I could be the one that made you happy,
But I guess that will never come to be,
I just want to see you smile again,
I will never forget the times we had,
I know theyll make me happy and sad,
I will remember those times in the locker room,
When everyone used to watch us,
Because we acted so crazy together,
And made each other feel better,
I will remember those times in your apartment,
You would always tickle me to make me smile,
You made my life seems worthwhile,
Now all I have left of you is these memories,
To go with those sad little love stories,
And it is all my fault,
I know that Im far from being perfect to you,
Somehow I have been tricked,
Into believing I was something more,
And once again Ive hit the floor,
Worthless and a waste of space,
I wish I could tear off my face,
I was never good enough for you,
Everyone else knew that it was true,
I didnt deserve you at all,
Now Im taking my hardest ever fall.

You made me a joke,
& I made you my everything...........