No.. it was not supposed to be like that. I cried myself to sleep again last night. I really hate doing that but tears just keep rolling down my cheeks. I hate when I think about you. We were just together for a week and its been almost two months you walked out of my life.. but why, why I just can't get over you like all those boys that had broke my heart before you? Everytime I saw you, I wear a mask pretending I was happy without you, but deep inside its killing me bit by bit. And I hate it when I keep bumping into your girlfriend. Knowing that she owns you, how perfect is her world, but mine... crashing down like nobody cares. I want to love somebody else who deserves it, but I just can't seem to do it. You said you cared, it was all a lie. I just wish someday I could hate you...

I love you,
You love her,
She loves you,
How about me?

Assessments and coming final exams are stressing me like hell. I don't want to fail my term 2 cos I don't want to spend my four months rotting at home for another intake ):

God, please help me. Give me more memory space, or maybe upgrade it for me. This is soooooo random. Will have a proper update soon, so come back later k? Hahaha. Bye.

I tell people I only like you.
AS A FRIEND.
I tell all my friends that I'm over you.
I help you with all your problems with her.
I just wish you would understand.
I LOVE YOU.
I'LL NEVER BE OVER YOU.
& I HATE HER SO MUCH.
because you love her.

& you are exactly the type of boy I promised myself I would NEVER fall for..
so i guess this makes me a liar.

Taken minutes ago.

Tot of skipping front office replacement class tomorrow at 9am but Ms Ruth is being smart enough to give us assessment on walk-in reservation tomorrow cos she knows for sure some of us will skip if there's no assessment. Ish.

Miki just phoned me and asked me whether I'm free to go for a drink in Station 1 at Puchong. Yea, I'm fucking free but no one will be fetching me there lar. Shit. I'm gonna get my driving license asap. It's very inconvenience for me although most of my friends will be fetching me out. Ha ha.

About today's housekeeping assessment on trolley packing&bathroom cleaning. I'm being unlucky to be chosen to do the trolley packing. What the fuck lar. Bell studied for it and yet she got the bathroom cleaning just to wash the toilet unit without explaining any facts. Me, being unlucky was shoot by Ms Lay Bee:

Her: That's all ar?
Me: Yea, I guess so.
Her: Janice, are you sure you've done all the explanation?
Me: *keeps quiet*

Then when I came out from the room calling for the next two person, I just remember that I forgot to explain about the tires . I lost marks again! Argh.. It reminds me of how badly I did for the previous assessment on bed making. My term 2 sucks and I really wish I won't failed, sigh.. no mood already.

I will just post the photos taken today during account class:





It's like Bell trying to say, "Apalar!". Ha ha.


Rebekah sleeping again? :x


Oh yea. Suddenly this matter go through my mind, I just remember it. Boy, I'm good to everyone. So I hope you don't misunderstood that I actually have feeling towards you when I'm being nice to you. You're just another friend of mine. I just want you to know that we will never get together. I hope you won't spread rumors around in college telling others that we're getting together. I don't like it when people start asking me so and so. I'm single but I'm not available :)



A million words couldn't bring you back, I know because I've tried. Neither could a million tears, I know because I've cried.

Taken yesterday.

I caught flu lar. My nose damn red and pain now. Ish ish ish.

Anyway, talk about today. I was fucking fed up with Ms Ruth lar. She cancelled the replacement class again at the very last minute. The first time which is a week ago, we waited for her for half an hour and she never appeared. And today, when we were about to enter the class, she told us that she got meeting at 5pm so the class can't be held. What the fuck! My class was supposed to ends at 12.30pm on every Wednesday but for today her replacement class was scheduled to be at 4pm. So that means I wasted my 4hours for nothing! And I have to come for her replacement class this Saturday morning. Celaka. Babi betul. I think I will just skip it lar.

Well, Jasvin borrowed my video camera for filming just now so I have to wait for them to finish their filming. So while waiting, Bell, Asher and me went to the 7th floor. Slacked there. It was raining heavily, so the road beside our college heading to the Federal Highway was flooded. And I enjoyed watching those cars swimming? LOL! Got one motorcycle and one small lorry mati enjin lor.



Before I end my post, I just want to highlight this quote to someone - You were born as an original, so don't die as a copy. Stop copying others lar, cheapo. Be proud to be yourself.



You may have hurt me by breaking my heart but that also helped me by making me stronger.

See the red line.

My so-called clever and genius brother spoils my cellphone's keypad larr!! WTF. My number 5 breaks into two. He was using my phone to play the brain juice game and he got so excited and press it fucking hard and fast. I just told him that the keypad is fragile and the next second he spoils it. I feel like choking him to death. My phone is not even one month old yet. Ish. Luckily I managed to claim my warranty. If not, he has to pay for it. I phoned SE just now and the dealer told me I can get my phone repaired in 3-5 working days. I'm not planning to send it tomorrow. Might be this Sunday.

And I'm so happy to know that there will be no more Moral class. No more grandmother stories, lol! Everyone knows Adrian Yao lovesssssss to shoot me. Whatever that comes out from my mouth during class, its either he get fucking angry or he make fun of me. I hate the way he stares at me. Urgh.


We talked about old times, and it made me smile, because you didn't forget.

Captured by Mich - today.

I never meant to hurt anyone from the start. Being loved is a good feeling but at the same time, it hurts when you know you can't give anything to him. I didn't want to drag this any longer, so I'm sorry. You said it's better for you to stop loving me. I nearly cried, but in the same time my heart knows this is the best solution. You will always be my friend.

Well, today is just another random day. Went out at 1pm and reached home at 9pm. Bought one blouse and two tees from SML. Had home-cook food for dinner at Bernard's house. I got pastry class tomorrow lar! It's fun but I hate to wake up early ):

My parents will be going to London this 25th and be back on 11th Dec. I'm happy but sad, too. I'm happy cos I can do anything I want, I'm sad cos I need to maximize my expenses. Mmm, overall, happiness' percentage is more than the sadness'. Haha!

Sorry i didn't tell you it was going to end like this.

Do you know that everyone of us dislike you now? Why do you have to still stick with us? It's like fucking obvious that we don't want to talk much with you. I regretted for helping you when they firstly dislike you. I even almost quarrel with one of them because of a cheapo like you. Now, I know what's the problem. You're fucking cheap la, girl.

Okay, friends are not as important as boyfriend for you. So get lost lar. We don't need a friend like you. I don't mind you having him as your boyfriend but you're getting far than worst. You lied. Everything you said is a lie from the start. True friends don't lie to each others. All I need in a friend is only four things - trust, honesty, respect, loyalty. And you don't even have ONE of it. I can be mean if you get me twisted. I don't think you deserve the respect and care from me anyways. Finally, we saw your true colors. How can you be such a jerk?! Friends are forever but boyfriends are not.

Walao eh, it's even worst when you're like acting in front of your boyfriend? Please lar.. please please please. It's really disgusting. You're making the whole entire genre of us in a shame. And why you like to say that there are people who's copying you? Call people copy dog somemore. Do you know you're the one who has been copying others? I hate your fringe. It sucks.

If you know I'm talking about you, I don't mind you complaining to your boyfriend. Cos I don't think he cares, too. One quote - siapa makan cili dia sendiri terasa pedas.

Maybe I ain't a close friend to you but there was once when I take you as my buddy. I seriously hate people lying. Fuck la wei. I hope you get your lesson one day. Don't say I'm mean. We gave you like fucking lots of chance but you just simply trashed it.

Why do I even bother to care about our friendship? Why do I even bother about you? Cos you were my close friend, and you did that to me, to us. I really hope you can stop that but as long as you're still with him, you won't even care about our friendship. But nasi sudah jadi bubur, once lied, forever lying.

It's sad to have such a friend like you.....

Can't really see the difference from the photo.

I finally had my haircut after ten months not visiting the saloon and it turns out to be regretful. If I knew the outcome, I definitely will not go for it. Wasted my 66bucks. Well, I got quite a number of opinions today. Some said I look better with short fringe, some said I look childish, some said no difference. For me, I strongly dislike it cos its like fucking short man?! I can't even tie all my hair up now ):

I LOOK SOOOOO CHEENA }':

Well, today's service was okay lar. As I mentioned in my previous post, Nicholas and MunYee are my guests, so no need stress cos I can just simply blablabla. Wrong information also takpe lar. The worst part is when I dropped the butter dish and it breaks into two. Luckily Mr Santhi never scold me and I quickly threw the whole thing to the dustbin.

After service, I forgot to take the menu I borrowed from Rebecca and the service cloth which belongs to Asher. Like wtf cann!! This morning I even accidentally put my cellphone on top of the washing area. Luckily Esther saw it and asked Kelly to pass it to me. Ish, fucking clumsy and careless.


Someone asked me if i knew you, memories flashed through my mind, and I said, "..not anymore".

I'm having front office assessment on receiving reservation on phone and create a reservation profile tomorrow and I'm fucking lazy to prepare for it larr. I just remember, "Good morning, this is Taylor's International Hotel reservation department.. May I help you?" Gosh, and I totally have no idea about the whole computer thingy larr. Prepare to die for tomorrow :D

Well, I will be having fnb pratical this coming Thursday. My guests would be Nicholas and MunYee. Ha ha. I've invited them like few times already but never make it. I seriously hope that I can make it this week lorr. Don't want to disappointed them over and over again, lol! (Nicholas will be laughing when he read this.)

Oh ya! I will be taking my braces off this coming December either on the 8th or 10th. I suddenly feel like don't want to take it off larr. Cos its my trademark? LOL! Then I will have the small operation on the 15th. Hopefully my blood won't run out? Ok, not funny.


I hate being the second best to you.

I can't stop crying, I just can't.


I'm here.
You're there.
So far apart....
with her in between.



I told you I was over you. Did I mention I'm also a chronic liar?

Nothing much to blog about my day. I got dentist appointment later on at 5pm. I was supposed to go shopping with mum but ended up online-ing. Anyway, I realized that alot of people is getting sick these days. People, do take care and drink plenty of water. Get well soon xD

When you look at a person, any person, remember that every one has a story. Everyone has gone through something that has changed them to what they are today.

Yesterday is Zieco's birthday. They went to Ruums to celebrate his 18th birthday. At last he's in a legal age. LOL! I didn't manage to go as no one can send me home after the party. I went out with other friends instead. Hmm.. bet they enjoyed their night.

Well, today I woke up at around 10am. As soon as I opened my room's door, mum started to nag at me. Then, I told her that I won't be having lunch and dinner at home, and the nagging went worst. Who cares la. I met up Ching Yee and Siaw Ming(my old friends from Sarawak, havent meet them for like three years?) at KLCC. They said I changed a lot.. erm.. happy to hear that, lol!

Went to Times Square and Sg Wang also. Bought myself a new flip-flop from FOS, and a black tee from MBK. Spent more than 100bucks today. Oh ya I bought a pacifier from Watson to hang it on my phone. Reached home at around 10pm. Supposed to come home later, but mum was like rushing me. Fuck la wei.


The pacifier xD


The flip-flop.


They look so gay man. Haha!


Me and Becca.


Me and Bell.

Don't say you love me unless it's true because i might do something stupid like believe you.

Mmm. First of all, what to blog? I went sunway lagoon with my college buddies yesterday. It was damn fun, luckily I made it last minute. I tot I will be busy the whole day and couldn't meet them up. Bell sent me home to pack my things, bathed and we rushed down to subang. Bell went to meet up her boyfriend while I meet them at 12.30pm.

Err..nothing much to blog about it. Let the pictures do the talking yea? Anyway, I nearly die yesterday. I was following Rebecca, I hold on her shoulder and I was like swimming? Who knows she went to the deep area and she can no longer stand properly. She was standing with her toe, and she don't know how to swim! I dont know how to swim either. I tried to touch the floor. But I couldn't make it as I am way too short man.

I was pulling her, she got so panic, both of us was like doing a rhyme. When she is up, I am in the water and when I am up, she is in the water. Gosh, the lifeguards there were damn stupid lor! They tot Rebecca and me were just playing. Esther they all were chit-chatting in front and didn't know were drowning. I drank the pool water like two-three times?! And I tried my best to shout, "help me".

Joel heard it and he quickly threw the floater to my area. And Justin quickly swim to my area and hold me. Oh my god. I can't think what will happened if I didn't manage to shout. Rebecca, I'm sorry lar k! I know I shouldn't pull you but then I was struggling for my life ):



Candid shot.


Ready!


The girls [:


I love this photos very much!


Rebecca is like forcing me to take pic with her.


Us.














All of us! Before stepping our feet out.


Me and Bebe!


See how short I am.


Haha. So random.









After sunway lagoon, we went for chicken buffet in sunway pyramid. I don't know the name of the shop, sorry. Well, do check out the photos I took there in my friendster k. Damn lazy to upload it here.

I'm glad finally I'm over you. I'm moving on.......