High on love.

These few days, I've been really happy although I've a big quarrel with my mom until she's not talking to me. At least she still bothers to get me a new laptop. I got myself a new laptop! But I'm still keeping the old one. My mom asked me to throw it away. Hell no! I got feeling with it k, been together with me for years.

Anyhoo, I've finally moved on and let go of the past. Letting someone who deserves my commitment into my heart, helping me to make my heart whole again. He treats me with the utmost respect and the care that I deserve from a boyfriend. I didn't believe in forever but I'm gonna appreciate what I have now.

I wanted to get white color but out of stock. Have to wait until Thursday, but red not bad also right =P

The cooling fan. I wanna get myself the laptop skin soon =D

Darl, my love for you is like the ocean, deep, wide, and you can't see what's coming, if it's good, if it's bad, all we can do is be there for each other and hope for the best, right? <3

Did I lie as good as you?

Year End Exam is officially over. For Management Tools & Techniques paper, I thought Business Maths will be the easiest among all the four subjects, but today's paper proved me wrong. I screwed that part, really. Sigh.

So after exam, Bell came to my house. Then around 3pm, we went to Nando's in The Mines for our late lunch. Drive her around in Putrajaya since she never been here before and the scenery is very beautiful for people who came for the first time. For me, I've been living here for almost four years so I get totally bored of everything in this state. Nothing so special about it anymore.

Honestly, I never been to Nando's before and today was my first time and it already gives me a very bad impression. First of all, when we entered the restaurant, none of them greet us nor bother to entertain us until I find myself a seat. The waitress that was taking our order is really very unpolite. She can't even stand properly and leaned her back on the wall! Omgfzx! Eh, seriously lah. I'm not in a fast food restaurant or maybe a kopitiam or mamak stall. Please show us some respect.

The foods there are not nice, or maybe what we ordered is not their specialty. I'm so not going back to Nando's forever. Kenny Roger's chicken is trillion times better than Nando's. And Nando's, your slogan "Chick Rules" on the uniforms, please throw it away =)

I'm feeling sleepy already. I only sleep for an hour last night before heading to college at 7.30am.

In eldest brother's room.

The eyes are weird in a way.

The back view from my house.

She can't stand me keep camwhoring. Look at her face!

She is shy today =P

Model wanna-be :)

There was a time when I'd do anything to get to you,
But now, I'd do anything to forget you.

No matter how hard I try.

I'm having Premenstrual Syndrome. I hate period lah. If only I was the opposite sex.

Dragged myself to college for exam. The paper was not as easy as what I've expected. And for the essay part, I just simply write anything that came across my mind.

& I saw him today with a girl after so long. And I assume she's his new girlfriend. I feel disturbed by it. And it's times like these I wonder why I even bother. We're nothing, nothing anymore.

I look so pale, huh? I came out from the exam hall half an hour earlier.
Was waiting for Bell since she's fetching me to Bdr Tasik Selatan.

Now my smiles turn into tears when I see you,
and my love turned into questions of why you made me do it.

Finally it's gone.

Exams are not over yet. But no more stress after today's paper since the next two papers are not much of memorizing. Tomorrow will be having Intensive English paper and on Friday, Management Tools paper.

So Hospitality Operations was quite okay lah. Hopefully I can pass for it. Oenology is really a fucking killer. I don't even know how to do any of it. I memorized the regions, and variety of grapes and yet none of it came out. Stupid lah. I never read the champagne process. Ahh.. don't mention about it anymore. What's done is done.

I'm at at Bell's house now. Overnighting.

You hurt me by trying not to hurt me,
You made me cry by trying not to make me cry,
You tried to keep me happy by telling lie after lie after lie.

Where are you?

I've no confident for tomorrow's paper because I give up studying for Oenology and Food Science&Sanitation. I pray that the questions coming out is not hard. Or not, I'm in deep shit. I don't want to return to college during training just to retake for the paper lah ):

So today I was in the library from noon until evening. Bumped into a few course mates. Most of the times, I was stoning, yawning, chit-chatting, laughing and not forgetting camwhoring(Ha ha). I just can't concentrate like how Bell did.


The photos show that her eyes are not off the notes. I can even take a few photos of her without her noticing it because she was so concentrating. If only I have half of it, I would be glad.








I saw someone who look exactly like you today in the library. I kept looking at him cos he really has your figure. But I know it's not you. Because I'm sure I would know it's you if it's you. It's been a month since I last saw you. Where are you? I thought I've stop missing you. But it seems like I'm just lying to myself all these times. It's not because I realized I miss you that I have my own imaginary that the guy looks like you. Even before I mentioned it, Bell said that the guy looks fucking like you. I only realized I miss you after I saw that guy. I just can't keep my eyes off him because when I looked at him, it's like I saw you. He has the exact smile like you. Just that if I really saw you, you wouldn't be giving me that stranger's smile. Oh wait, we're strangers now. I'm just another girl walking in and then out of your life. I hope you're doing great if you got to see this. And it's your final year exam now, right? All the best :)

Life has been oh-so-good. As if.

Notes are killing me, really. My brain can't digest anything anymore after I've inserted the thick notes of Food&Beverage, Room Division and Kitchen Operations today in the library. I haven't read Oenology and Food Science. And Purchasing&Cost Control. That's a lot, right? Did I mention before that Oenology is a killer? Don't ever mention about it.

I need a sleep badly but I just can't fall asleep. I am having jitters already. Sad thing. When I closed my eyes, the whole scenario(of failing the term and how the college staff called me and said; hey BUDDY, you failed your term, BAHAHAHAHA) just playing in my head. Gosh. I'm going crazy since I can think of such stupid conversation. That is really not helping at all.

If I failed term 3, I have to go back to term 1. Hell shiit. That's scaring me. Don't feel like blogging, chatting, smsing, ah just anything that do with readings, I don't wanna do LAH. I'm hanging myself very soon ):

Why in the hell that people created exams? If I'm a trillionaire, I'm gonna ban exams. Baha. As if, as if.

If one day.

I fail to study again. One more day wasted. I haven't start studying Oenology and Purchasing&Cost Control. Left two more days. When lah I will be more hardworking? I doubt this day will come.

Bell wanted to go to the library tomorrow so most probably I will be going, too since I need her to teach me Purchasing&Cost Control. Anyway, I drove to her house just now to pass her the Kitchen Technology(Pastries) notes. All of a sudden, I just get tired of driving. Oh my god~ just the third day. No good. It's not good.

Finally, I got to meet him just now :)

Your heart makes the choices, your brain just tells you what it says.

Second day of driving, I already nearly get myself in an accident. Just a few inches more. So scary t.t

I was bringing my elder brother to The Mines since he needed a hair cut. Then, we bought our lunch from Spices of Malaysia. On the way back, it was raining very heavily. I can hardly see the cars on the road. If I could, next time, I will just stop at the side of the road and wait for the rain to stop.

What will happened if I didn't manage to pull over my steering wheel and breaks? My car will be admitted into the hospital for days and I won't be driving for days. Stupid lah. Curse curse curse. Was planning to go down Cheras to find my friends but cancelled it cause it's still fucking raining and my heart still jumps.

Don't you ever drive up to 120km/j anymore even if you're on the high way. Dangerous eh. But I think this will get off my mind after this scary thing stops haunting me.

Every one is busy studying for the exams and me?
Slacking and camwhoring.

Be original, please.

My previous blogskin made my blog looks so plain, so I decided to add some colors to it. I know the color combination sucks but I just don't have time figuring it out. I needa start doing my revision. Left three more days to go. I hate exams, who loves exams? Only nerds.

I'm still using the blogger's template. Just adding the background, and the boxes. Of cos the girl in the header photo is me. Ha ha ha. The editing is not so nice cos I'm really running out of time. Sigh.

Don't rip my skin :)

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Changed my friendster's background, too.

Blow so you don't suck.

I didn't go to the library today. I woke up at nine, bathed, get prepared and suddenly the laziness just built it way up my body. So lazy to take the 45mins train to college. In conclusion, at home studying :D

Anyway, my instructor smsed me to inform that I can get my P license anytime. Of cos being so excited about it, I drove my MyVi with my elder brother sitting beside me to collect the license at around twelve.

A bad experience for my brother (he's the first to sit in my car) cos all the way, I forgot to pull down the hand break (this is really funny). I drove up to 100km/j to Alamanda to buy McD for our lunch. My brother was like; hey first time driving, are you nuts, drive below 80km/j enough lah. Ha ha. He was so scare that I might hit other cars.

So who's the next one to sit in my car? =P

Ahhh.. I'm so tired nowadays.

I am freaking tired! I hope my other course mates are sharing this similar feeling or else I can start checking if I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome already.

& I think I'm going to the library tomorrow or else I will spend my day lazying like what I did today. So much of sleeping. 24hrs for a day and yet I only studied for 4hrs.

Leave me here because at this point;
I don't need you anymore.

Don't try to fix me.

So, today is the last day of class for Term 3. Had Opera class and Plant&Premises class. Both also had assessment, and I screwed both papers. Nah, I don't fucking care about the Opera class anymore, and I dumped the notes in the library cos I won't be using it anymore. I don't wanna touch any notes regarding to Room Division anymore after the Year End Exam since I'm specializing in Food&Beverage in my following years.

I definitely not going to miss Ms Charmaine for sure. She's nuts, and she talks like one real asshole. Not forgetting Ms Ruth, too. Is it just people who specialized in Room Division acts like that? No offense okay. I just fucking hate the way she scolded Sio Sen this morning. And she fucking scolded me, too when I entered late. Not that I want to be late lah, hello. And it's like the first time I'm late for her class? The damn ktm delayed for around 20mins. What can I do? Fuck her lah.

And still nagged, "I don't know how lah when you go training? Cannot be late..blablablablabla". I fucking know that okay. I will be early half an hour during my training. So don't you fucking worry for me. It's just that I know it's your class, so I don't mind if I'm late? I really hope you won't be appearing in any of my class again. Really. These three months, I've been bearing you. And of cos I won't mind if you're reading this. I doubt it anyways. Ha ha ha.

Anyhow, I'm going to miss my group mates now cos after we come back from training, we might be in different groups already. I just hope that I won't be in the same group with that someone, seriously. But she's specializing in F&B, too so the chances of getting into the same group with her is 80% but I really hope the 20% will happen. Cos I don't want to see her face every single day in the class :)

Another dress. And today, I also bought two tees,
one in light purple and one in dark purple.
Oh my god~ so purple. But I still love red more :D

The day I walked out of your life;
Was the day I promised I will never come back.

The brand new me.

Photo of the day:
My boyfriend, Mr.McDonald and ME :)

Today, went to college for Intensive English class only since there is no more Housekeeping class. Ended at 12, then went to McDonald in Sunway Pyramid for lunch. Then headed back to college and went to the library to study. See carefully. I went to the library to study. Ha ha ha ha. Unbelievable? But you gotta believe it :)

My training is delayed a week, in which my training will starts on 7th April, not 31st March and ends on 27th June, not 20th June. So, the good news is I've one week holiday before training starts and the bad news is my two weeks holiday after training is shortened to one week. Stupid yet yeah :D

Could I possibly forget everything we had like that?

Things do really get better with time.

In the erl back to Putrajaya.

So today, had last kitchen practical class for term 3. And I fucking cut my fingers again. I somehow dislike kitchen class cos I will always end up with cuts or burnt fingers. I can feel the ultra pain when I'm washing my hair just now. Urgh. After that, had Statistic class at four. Very dissatisfied about my marks for the previous assessment. I got 31/40. So low lah. I never get B for my maths leh ):

Anyway, I'm feeling sleepy already. Let the pictures do the talking yeah?

I bought a new dress!

Totally loves <3

Random photo.

Omg, see how my elder brother drive the car.

In the car back home.

Night people =)

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There's people who googled in retainer under blog search and ended up in my blog.

THIS IS SO FUNNY. Maybe it's not funny to you.
But it's funny to me. HA HA HA HA.

Fear is an excellent motivator in battle.

I got an ulcer! And it's making me freaking pain when I'm wearing the retainer. Fuck it. I hate retainer. I fucking hate ulcer. By the way, I just dig out all the notes this evening. But I haven't start studying anything yet. One more week to go. Screw Taylor's School of Hospitality and Tourism for squeezing eleven subjects into three papers. Brainless.

(1) Hospitality Operations
(Front Office, Housekeeping, Restaurant, Kitchen, Oenology, Purchasing&Cost Control)

(2) English Communications
(Intensive English)

(3) Management Tools and Techniques
(Accounting, Business Maths, Statistic, Plant&Premises)

Damn it.

When life kicks you in the ass, kick it in the balls!

Guess what? I passed my driving test. Like omg! I'm getting my P license very soon. In a week time or less. Thanks for people who had sms me to wish me luck, and even those who called me up. I really feel touched about it. Ha ha. I know it's not a big test anyhow, but it makes me knew that there are people who loves me, lol!

So I reached the driving academy in Bangi at eight. And I don't freaking remember what time I did the on road test, but luckily I got a good JPJ officer. A lady. Yet she's being so nice, really. She even helped me out when my engine stopped at the traffic light. Stupid clutch's fault. Then I waited for the test II from morning until evening. Hell lotsa people.

I was damn nervous that I will accidentally reverse at the hill cos many failed for it. Thanks God, I did it very well. Ha ha ha. I'm so proud of myself now. Cos I get 48/50 for the law test. Then, I get 18/20 for the on road test. And I passed the test II. All passed in first test. I never give duit kopi ok =D

In conclusion, I'm gonna drive my MyVi out on the road soon, no more train, no more squeeze in and out. But have to bear with the traffic jams. I don't know lah. I might be still taking train to college since I hate traffic jams. It's going to stress me for sure. I somehow like taking train, too. Cos err.. no idea. Maybe I'm used to take train everywhere?

Oh yea, I dropped my 50bucks today. I cursed the person who took my money burns in hell. Fuck you. Fuck you idiot. Fuck you shitass. Fuck you butthead.

I wonder who the hell was so free to search in yahoo for my email address
and search in google for wayne soo, and ended up in my blog. So bo liao, seriously.

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Do you think I care? Do you think he cares? You ain't no better than me. Call me bitch, call me slut. It simply means you don't know me too well. You can't fucking bring me down cos I've lost a friend like you long time ago. I hate being lied, and you lied just because you live in the eyes of others. Just please leave us alone.

Screw you.

Bad feeling.

Nothing much to blog about today. Skipped English and Statistic class. Went for the driving class at eleven. Reached home at two, had lunch and took a nap until seven. That's roughly about my Thursday. I will be having driving test tomorrow. I just have that feeling that I'm going to fail for it. And sad to say, my feelings always come true ):

My fav own cooking! I have this for lunch sometimes.
Corn with pork minced meat and onions. It's totally love :)
You can try it with sweet corn, too if you love sweet plus salty. Heh.

Does anyone loves corn like how i love corn? Ha ha ha.

Life is like photography. You develop from the negatives.

Isn't it just the funniest thing to finally
think you are getting over him,
Until the smallest things remind you of
the times you both were together,
And all the pain comes rushing back,
You end up missing him all over again.

& Isn't it funny how there is this one thing
you really hate about him,
But once two of you are no longer together,
That's the one thing you miss so much...

My heart cries knowing that I'll never be his again.

Someday, someday I'll be over him.
It just the time that matters.

We passed by each others, then you looked at me and keep on walking.
You cover up so well. Nobody would know we used to be lovers.

What A Day.

One of my bestfriends which I call losers =)

Since the seniors are having trial exams this week and they needa use the ICT Lab for the opera system at nine, our Opera class which was supposed to ends at ten, ended at nine. And the Plant&Premises class was cancelled. So it's like fucking four hours break. Bell and me are still not in the exam mood, so we're not planning to spend the time studying. We sat in front of the annexe, staring at the air, creating funny lame jokes, and did our fiche technique. Then around ten, I decided to brunch in Domino near to our college. Reached there and then we only knew that it opens at eleven. So went to Sunway Pyramid's Pizza Hut. I thought we're the first customers but there are a group of fours which is like earlier than us alot cos they're enjoying their soups already. Ha ha.

Went back to college when the clock is about to strike eleven thirty and went to the library. Wanted to do the homework for Purchasing&Cost Control but ended up chit-chatting with friends. Class started at one and finished at two. The class was supposed to end at three but my lecturer got doctor appointment at three so she has to leave early.

May and Voon In are having an interview at Le Meridien Hotel today at five. So I waited for them and Miki in college for like fucking long man, they only appeared at about three something. Luckily, Bell was willing to accompany me. And also bumped into some other friends so still managed to kill time lah. I accompanied them to the hotel since honestly, I never been there before. The hotel is like fucking nice lah? Very 5star, lol.

So I ordered Hawaiian Tuna. My fav of all =)

Still empty at ten thirty.

Her another way of posing in front of the camera. Ha ha ha.

This is May and Voon In in Le Meridien's washroom..

She wanted to take photo with me leh :D

Yeah, I know this is a coin purse, but I make it my cellphone pouch.
Heh. Something different =) Anyone want to copy me? Idiot copycats.

I didn't get to see him today, so sad ):

Getting better.

Taken not long ago after bath. My hair takes so long to grow lah!
I want it to be until my waist a.s.a.p )=

The English presentation is postponed to next Tuesday. I was like freaking pissed off, really. I prepared for it, memorized my speech, and yet when she enters the class, she said, "I'm sorry guys. I thought this week is week 10, but it's week 9. Your presentation is on the week 10". Like fuck her lah. She's the one who said we're going to have presentation today last week. Urgh. Wasted my time.

After class at twelve, went Kenny Roger's in Sunway Pyramid for lunch with Bell. Wanted to shop, but no cash lah. Wanted to watch the movie, Redline but the next show is at five. So, went back to college since both of us don't want to reach home early and slacked in the library. Nah, actually I was doing my fiche technique and Bell was sleeping, lol. Decided to go home at three and I reached home before five.

Something makes me go tralala today. Only Bell knew why cos she's with me when it happened at the CP2 carpark in Sunway Pyramid. Ha ha ha =)

I ate 1/4 Chicken with black pepper sauce. The three side dishes are
macaroni cheese, golden corn with carrot and savoury rice. My fav!

Bell didn't know I snap this photo of her. She must be
suprised if she saw this. Kuakuakua.

In the library.

This is candid. I snapped it when Bell was looking at handsome guy. Ha ha ha.

When she knew about it, she starts posing. She is such a poser.

P/S: I just received a sms from my class rep informing that tomorrow's Plant and Premises class is cancelled. Wow, that is such a miracle from Ms Hema. Is the 4D Toto on tomorrow? But I somehow look forward for her class every week, seriously. An interesting class :)