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Thursday, January 31, 2008
I'm your girlfriend, you told me this. You said it's only me you miss. When someone asks how your girlfriend is, you act like I don't exist. Your secret girlfriend, that's me, and I'll live with it, if that's how it has to be.
People has been asking me about you. And all I can do is not answering them. We don't even look like a couple. Girlfriends and boyfriends meet in college everyday, have lunch together, blablablabla.. And what the hell with us? We only meet a few times in a week. You have your life, and I have mine. Is this what you called BGR?
I don't think we can last long. We might just break up soon. Or it isn't call break up anyways cos we're not in a relationship? We can not talk for a day, not sms for a day. You're busy with your fucking friends, and that fucking game. I feel like blowing up that 7th floor.
MAKE SURE YOUR BRAIN IS WORKING WHEN YOU'RE READING THAT BOLD SENTENCE, MY BIG TIME JACKASS >:o
So today, I watched Meet The Spartans. I rate it 2/5. The movie is funny but all bullshiit. Very lame.
I wasn't in a mood of blogging the past days. I must admit that it's more of nothing to say than lazy. Things aren't getting worst nor getting better between us. I can't sit here and talk and explain about our love cause we all know it's something you have to feel and it's kept inside.
Baby, please get back home now and call me ):
Gotta catch Meet The Spartans tomorrow if Statistic class ends early.
I was the aboyeur (the person who accepts orders from the restaurant, relays them to the appropriate stations) for today's kitchen practical. I think I did it badly as I was so fucking blur and confused.
I just have so much IFs lingering in my mind right now. I hate to be alone in my room, cos I will start crying over stupid worthless things.
I just don't understand, really. Why must this happened to me? I thought you've changed, no, you're still the same. The only changes you made, is that you care about me more. That's all. I don't need a perfect boyfriend, but I need a boyfriend who spares a thought for me. What will you feel if I were to be like you, flirting around? You makes me hate every girls who's your friend. Right at the moment they hugged you, they held my entire world. Did you know that? I thought we could make things different. I just hate it so.........
I don't love you like how I do in the past anymore, after all those shits you gave me. Oh well, maybe I'm not a girl that can tolerate with you. You want a perfect girlfriend? Go get yourself a damn barbie!
& I know you will be reading this, let it be pissed or whatever. This is what I'm gonna say. FULLSTOP.
All of the sudden, I thought of having this cell-phone stickers. I've no idea why. So today, after I went college to have a talk with Ms Low, I went to Times Square alone just to get it for only six bucks. I bought a new phone pouch, too. I bumped into Valerie and her boyfriend. Reached home at three.
I was way too bored so I fell asleep until Jensen smsed me at ten plus which woke me up from my beautiful sleep. I got five messages(two from Jensen, three from him) and three missed calls. Oh yea, the English replacement class for today was cancelled. Damn stupid lor. Hate cancellation in the last minute. Like totally screwed my plan.
I needa wake up early tomorrow to go for the Engine Theory(Argh, don't know what the fuck is it called).
My favourite quotes from The Game Plan. Still a lot, but I can't really remember all.
Peyton: Stupid is a mean word. Kyle: No it isn't. Peyton: Yes it is. Kyle: No it isn't. Peyton: Yes it is.
Joe: You get into people's mind, just like her! Peyton: Well, at least I have a mind otherwise I will be just like you!
Peyton: Kids need sugar. Joe: My dad never let me have sugar. Peyton: Is it why you never smiled?
Peyton: My mummy says Fanny Burger's make kids fat and give you gas.
Sanders: Is Spike wearing a tutu? (This makes me laughed so loud in the cinema)
Baby, thanks for the hug and kiss on my forehead. Glad that you're not mad anymore.
One of the lady from Human Resources, Putrajaya Mariott Hotel phoned me this evening. She asked me to go for an interview asap. Like wtf. She said; Can you come for the interview tomorrow?
Me: Sorry Miss, I have something up tomorrow. Her: How about this Saturday? Me: But I need to go for the Engine Speech. Her: When can you make it? As soon as possible? Me: Err.. how about next Tuesday? Her: What time are you free? Me: After two. Her: So we make it three? Me: Okay.
(That's just a part of our conversation. We did talked a lot. She's friendly :D )
My dad phoned the HR Manager this morning to like asked them to accept me and Bell. But I never thought that they will called me so fast la. Damn nervous for the interview but Jensen said it's fine. I need to see Ms Low at the Career Centre tomorrow to get my resume/documents.
Well, so today, Statistic Class was cancelled. Went Leisure Mall with Bell and Miki. We watched the movie, The Game Plan and I had my cellphone repaired at the Sony Ericsson Centre nearby it. I rated the movie - 4.5/5. I laughed throughout the movie but there is part which nearly make me cried. Too touched I guess? Dwayne aka The Rock is hawwttsss, I love his grin.
After that, reached home at six thirty and had a big fight with my elder brother. Mum just scolded us for what had happened since she found out we fought(she saw the broken glasses and the broken mop). I know it sounds evil and scary, but that's my elder brother. I should say I never like him for once. Even when my mum is scolding us just now, he still shouted at my mum. If I can, I really wanted to kill him for not respecting others especially your own biological parents. I just hate him to the core. Don't start telling me that's he's my brother blablabla, I don't give a damn to it anymore. He hit me like I'm not his sister ok, so shut up if you don't know anything.
Enough of it.
So tomorrow, there will be a replacement class for English at twelve to two. My tummy is not feeling so well. I went to the toilet almost six times? Or maybe seven times? eight times? in college. I ate the chinese medicine and I hope I will get better soon.
So today we all did a great job and I was proud being the manager of the day, but we nearly screwed everything when we just realized that we didn't prepare for the soup plates only after the guests came in. Like wtf man. Luckily we managed to handle it.
& I guess everyone likes our theme cos there were peoples who keep pointing at the cartoons and there were even girls taking photos of it. I saw Elaine and Melvin snapping photos of the beverages, tables and so on, so maybe they are writing a post about it. So, have a look at their blog yea?
After restaurant practical, Bell and me went to Sunway Pyramid to had our lunch at KFC. Skipped Statistic class. Then, she sent me to Bdr Tasik Selatan and I reached home before seven. Took a nap and woke up at ten.
Oh my godddddddddddddddd! I haven't do my English essay. Classes start at ten tomorrow!
Like finally, I've a new photos of myself to upload. I look damn fair in both of the photos above, how I wish I was that fair. My actual skin color is as dark as the below photo ):
I've nothing to blog about today. Just another normal Sunday.
He knew I love peppermint ice-cream so much, I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D
That's my result. I was so confident in getting full mark but I've no idea which of the two questions I got it wrong. Damnit. But still satisfied with it (:
Thank you so much for people who had wish me through either sms or msn. I really do appreciate those wishes from you guys. & happy to know that people do read my blog. Haha :D
So today I reached the MPEG Bangi at around eleven and I waited for five freaking long hours for my turn. Damn bloody hell lots of people. I did thought of canceling it and come again next Saturday but my dad said; since you've waited for three hours already, why not you just continue waiting? So I sat there for the lady to call out my name. Reached home before six.
I'm lazy to blog now. So I will just let the photos show what I've did this evening.
Preparation for this coming Monday. Remember that I mentioned before that I'm the manager? I'm not done with the cutting yet. Alot more to do. Bye.
After the briefing, Miki asked me to tag along with them to Sunway Pyramid for ice-skating. I feel like going and at the same time I want to save money since I just had around 150bucks in my purse. So I decided to go to Times Square alone since all of them wanna go ice-skating and few going to California Fitness. Jensen smsed me at the right time and he said he's coming to keep me accompany since I'm alone.
Saw Sonia and Kwan Han on the way there so we had our lunch at McD together. Bought new skinny black pants from Vees and new heels from Vki, so I'm officially broke now. Wanted to buy a new bag but none caught my eye. Luckily it's Friday, so I'm just gonna be broke for only two days, lol. Met Dennis before heading home and reached home at nine.
Didn't manage to meet him today as he's busy with his classes and after the last class, he went for i-called-it-fuckit-game-cos-i-despise-it-cos-to-him-its-more-important-than-me >:|
Ahh! Tomorrow is the driving law test. Omfg. Wish me luck people.
My post is fuck fuck fuck without photos. I've not been capturing anything with my phone nowadays. & did ya realize that I blog two weeks in a row without fail? I just love blogging recently.
I need to go to college tomorrow for the industrial training's briefing. Stupid la. Why choose it on the day when I don't have classes. All the way to college for an hour briefing. Waste my money(KLIA transit ain't cheap ok so I'm not being kedekut) and time going down. Since it's my first training, I think I should not skip this briefing as I need to know more about it. And it starts at 12pm, so not much complain about it as I can wake up after ten :D
Well, how's my day today. Great, cos I got to meet him(although I meet him almost everyday). This few days I've only managed to sleep for 3-4hrs so today, I got a hard time trying to keep myself awake. The last class finished at 2.30pm, then I went Alamanda with my elder brother as I wanted to look for stuffs(but in the end bought nothing). Dad arrived KL at five and we picked him up at Putrajaya Sentral. I stand no more so I crashed to bed right after I reached home. Slept until ten.
That's roughly about my Thursday (:
Hey baby, you know you drive me crazy. One look puts that rhythm in my head.
Dinner is ready but I don't know why I don't eat much nowadays. So today's classes was okay la, just that Purchasing&Cost Control's class was way too boring. I got puffy eyes now, lack of water and enough sleep causing this. Fuck. And I need to do the homework before sleep. Eight o'clock's class again tomorrow.
The results are out. And I'm freaking happy with my result man. Omg. It's more than what I've expected although I only get 8.1 for my Oenology. I got 15.66 for my Food Science, like wtf. I thought I screwed that paper. Of cos the result I got for this term ain't as good as the previous term, but still I'm glad that I got 13.66/20 for my global average. I passed all of the nine subjects.
Nah~ I know there are alot people higher than me but I'm proud of my mark cos I don't study for my final assessments, unless for Maths cos I did exercise for it. I never really study for any exams, even for my foundation year. That's why I failed my Economics in Semester 1 and I don't even bother to retake it during Semester 2 and 3, so I ended up couldn't proceed to the Accountancy degree. But I never regret for it cos I've choosen the course which I am interested in. Accounts isn't my choice ok and the fuck part is I took pure science in high school(!)
Enough of results. Now, I should think about the coming final exams in just less than three months. Janiceeeeee, study pleaseeeeee :D
Well, today was a great day cos I fell asleep inside the train and missed the station which I supposed to get down. After English class, I was asked by Rebecca to be her guest for today's lunch service so anus, sorry to made you wait for me for an hour or so. He was a bit pissed off. Then, took ktm to Bdr Tasik Selatan and met up my friends. We went Bernard's house to slacked and I ended up sleeping on the couch. Reached home at ten.
During the lunch, I kept looking outside cos he was in front of annexe but someone just simply ruined the view. Cos Rebecca was like; eh looking at him, that guy at the right table ah? Then I was like wtf, I was looking at my him ok. Ishh. And even Bell cracked a joke for this! And also Miki said; eh nice position. I was about to get fed up and they stopped. Stop mentioning about that guy in front of me. I knew you guys were trying to make a joke out of him but it's just pissing me off.
The food was lousy, like totally make me feel like going toilet to shit, the lasagna was under-cooked, no seasonings added (and I had to keep putting the salt) and the Spanish tomato soup looks more like tomato sauce than a bowl of soup (and its very sour). The butter cake was okay la~
I needa sleep soon cos my class starts at eight tomorrow.
So I had kitchen practical today. Chef Shaari not so sucks la. He's kind of friendly, and he helped us alot. But I don't like the briefing part cos I don't understand what he's saying. The main course was lasagna. I did lasagna today, oh my god! Can you believe it? Nah, trying to make a joke here but not funny, ya I know.
Then had Statistic class. The new part-time lecturer so fucking sucks ok. Wanted to write out her name here but I don't know her name. A malay lady. Like wtf. I talk louder than she shout ok! And she just simply scold; Shut up! instead of silence please. This shows that she seriously got no manner at all. And she was like pointing to Zieco's group and said; I hate four of you the most. Why in the hell that one lecturer talks in such manner? In less than 30mins, she got mad and packed her things and walked out of the lecture hall. The most funny part is that she left her handbag on the chair. Omg. Hope that she resigns. And if she wants to complaint us, we won't mind, so just go ahead.
After so long, finally I dragged myself to the college's library during that two hours break before Statistic class. Was freaking cold inside, forgot to bring my jacket. Brought my Latihan KKP inside and ended up playing with Clarissa's Nintendo game. Bell was reading my book and Esther said; Janice..How about you ask Bell go for the test?
And also like finally, I bumped into Jensen in library. I was like fucking hyper waved my hand and said; hi to him and he just returned it with a stone face. Like helllooo, one month never saw me cannot recognize my face already is it. (I know you're going to comment about this)
Well, went to the Exam Centre today cos someone pass a wrong news that the results are out and the lady there told us that we will only get our result this Friday. Fuck man. And I heard from May that if you failed, they will call you two days earlier before the actual results are out. Gosh. Eh, I'm not being a loser to keep saying about results ok. It's just like my dad asked me this morning; how's your result.
Me: Not out yet la. Him: It's the second week of your college and I don't believe the result are not out yet. Me: What for I lie to you? Him: Oh maybe you get poor result, that's why. Me: Eh, if it's out, Taylor's will send a letter to you k. So shut up and drive.
Talking about my dad. He's outstation today and will only be back this Thursday. I'm gonna miss my dad (:
Kitchen class tomorrow. Shiiit. I don't even have the fiche technique.
& good/bad news! I'm going back to my hometown during Chinese New Year for one week. I said it's bad cos I can't celebrate it with my friends here. Especially that anus :D
Today's driving law speech is really killing my ass. It was supposed to be a five hours lecture and thanks to the fucking idiot lecturer, spoke for six hours. And I can't stop myself from complaining that he kept saying; kurang ajar in every of his sentences. I hate his glasses. I'm sure he's using a fucking cheap non-polycarbonate lenses for his glasses cos I can hardly see his eyes. The class was !@#$-boring.
This is why I got no company at all. None of them in the class is chinese. I'm not trying to be racist here, but they are the one who glued to each other and make me feel like I'm an alien. Nah, I don't mind cos I got nothing to talk to them, too. I slept most of the time cos I was sleepy since I bounce to bed at two and woke up at seven. An officer drove me to the institute at 9am. Reached home at 4pm, then went out right after I had a bath. Then came back home at around ten. You made my day, anus :]
&& please don't shout; my biatch so loud next time, just please.
So I skipped the Statistics class today. Kelly smsed me that the class is changed to Monday after practical class. Not really satisfied with it cos after practical class, sure all of us will be very tired and sleepy. But better than having it on Friday, right? So Fridays, no classes (:
Well, the results are not out yet. I heard that it's going to be out on the second week of college. I'm getting more and more nervous la. Damnit. I have to sleep early today as I need to wake up at seven in the morning tomorrow.
Someone randomly said this to me; hey I read his blog. Me: Uh huh? Him: He said he's not missing you. Me: Do you think I give a shit? Him: Haha. Me: He's trying to hint something to us, so who cares? Him: Yeah, I sensed it. He's desperate. That's why. Me: :D
These days I've been listening to rock songs, I've no idea why, too. I like Plain White T's. And this song; Our Time Now is Alvin and the chipmunk's soundtrack.
I was having a serious headache yesterday. As soon as I reached home at seven in the evening, I went to bed and I only managed to wake up at 3pm today. I slept for 20hrs(long huh). I'm a lot better now but still feel abit dizzy. And I think I'm having sore throat soon cos I'm losing my voice ):
My timetable has changed. I got class on Friday at five to six in the evening. Like totally wtf. All the way to college just for an hour class and hey, it's fucking pack taking train at that hour lah. We all made a complaint and the management said they will try to changed it. If they still stick with it, I think I will just skip the class unless I feel like going that day just to meet him :D
I'm chatting with Hui Wen now, and I can't believe that desperate guy is still a joke in college. Boy, just stop acting like a gangster and you're famous with your kid attitude, do you know that? You're trying to be in a wall of fame, but you ended up in the wall of shame. I don't think that guy actually cares if you're there or not when he talks bad about you. And I don't mind us being friends, seriously. Cos I don't like having enemies.
Having a gorgeous boyfriend gives you a mixed bag of feelings. You love it cos, hey, he's dead gorgeous, being so proud that he's calling you; baby and pointing to every of his friends telling them you're his girl. But you hate it because it makes him that much more oblivious when other girls are practically hanging off of him.
Sometimes, you just feel like screaming; leave him alone, he's my boy. But you can't do anything cos he will just think that you're a sensitive ass fuck. And one day you stand no more so you got angry which you nearly let go of him and one sentence just popped out from his mouth, "If you'll break-up with me, I will be a homosexual forever." and the next second he hugged you tightly and tears seems to drop. How sweet can it be?
First day of college, not so great. Just that I'm happy to see my friends after so long(three weeks only la!). Everyone, as in most of them, changed their hair style. Some look great, some look okay, some look weird, some look extremely ugly(no offend). Saw juniors but I heard they are mass comm students. Omg. Got one look so cuteeeeee.. but I think he is younger than me but he looks older than me or maybe he is same age as me? Haha. Bear with me, I always take a glance at cute boys. But still I want my Peter Pan :D
First day of restaurant practical gave me a shock. I thought getting Mr Sarthi as my lecturer again is a fun which I still can be relaxing. But hell no. He gave us a lecture today as in scolding us for not being serious. He said; If you guys are going on like this, I'm going to fail you guys for term 3; I wanna see good glooming on next serving onwards(girls - makeup). I'm the manager for the next serving, great. Alot of things to be done. Hope I don't screwed everything since he's expecting me to do it well ):
I'm having menstrual pain now, all thanks to my menstrual period huh. Bye.
College starts tomorrow. I wanted to sleep early but I just can't get myself to sleep. Not because I feel fucking excited about college that I couldn't sleep okay? I don't feel any excitement at all. The reason why I can't is because this three weeks of holiday I've been sleeping only when the clock strikes five in the morning, so it's really hard for me to bounce into bed at this hour. Luckily, tomorrow we're not having kitchen practical. If not, most probably I will use tap water as cooking oil to cook the veges. Not funny.
Oh talking about cooking oil. Did you read the newspaper? Omg. I think Malaysian is really kiasi. I agreed that Malaysian panic easily(or maybe just peninsular malaysia's people, no offend ok). Gosh, buy so many bottles of cooking oil for what? You can eat finish 5kg of cooking oil in a day meh? The government just set a new rule that each consumer can only buy up to 5kg of cooking oil in A DAY. Not a month or a year la. Duh~
I went to the Driving Academy this morning, just to register. Going for the 8.30am's driving law speech on Saturday(Hope this time I will managed to wake up). I must stop the habit of delaying things, really. Even for my s500i's cellphone. The keypad had cracked for a month already and I yet to send it for repair. I went to Leisure Mall a few times but I always forgot to bring the warranty card.
It's almost midnight. I've to wake up at seven tomorrow. I miss my Peter Pan :D
Boy, don't act like a jerk in front of me can you? I found it stupid, i found it irritating. And annoying, too. I'm not interested in knowing how you feel, what you doing, how's your this and that. I feel like blocking you in msn. Yea, I'm talking about you.
This song is in my top list now. But I like About You Now by Sugababes more :D
Well, I slept at five in the morning and was forced to wake up by dad at 10am. He was nagging at me for keep delaying things(I was supposed to go for the driving law speech when my holiday started, and now my holiday is about to end and yet I haven't even register for it, bravo huh). And I feel like setting fire to burn down the whole driving academy office when it was not open today. Celaka babi kantoi betul.
Then, I followed my parents to Carrefour, Alamanda. My parents is buying a new car! Wanted to get a Proton car but my dad said not worth since Proton's engine can't maintain for long term. Targeting on Perodua Myvi but my brother own it already.
My mum just suddenly told me she gave around 60k only(Ish, so no more Vios?). So, I think getting Kia Suria not bad, too. Don't tell me how beautiful is the Honda cars, I love it, too but my parents can't afford to buy one since three of us is studying in the so-called-high-class universities(eldest bro in limkokwing, elder bro in multimedia) and my parents just bought a new house in Taman Tasik Puchong. && the most importantly, we're not a well-income family, just an average one. Unlike Bell, her family has 2BMWs (!) , one Mercedes, one Pajero and not forgetting her Myvi(haha). One BMW's Series M costs 900k, so let's go rob her :x
The cheapest Honda is City that cost around 80k but I don't like the design. I prefer Jazz but it's 100k(Wow!). My dream car is Honda Civic Type R which the market price is 200k now so I'm gonna work hard and get one when I reached my 30s. Or maybe I can get a rich husband before my 30s. *giggles*
I just knew that buying car in Labuan and Langkawi is alot alot cheaper in which Hondas will less around 20k and Toyotas can less around 40k(Omg!). Then, why don't we all go Langkawi buy cars? Or is it maybe they got terms and conditions? Or maybe the website lied to me? Haha. I talk too much about cars. Nah, I'm not a car freak ok. I just did the research. Anyway, reached home at 2pm, was having a serious headache which I nearly fainted and I went to bed until 7pm.
I miss going out everyday. I've been lazying around at home and refused to go out unless someone fetch me from my house(Darren, I knew you're the best). Haha. I miss some of my boyfriends and girlfriends cos I didn't meet and talk to them for some time already. I miss MunYee! I miss Sheryl! I miss LiJing! I miss Kevin! I miss Bell! I miss Eugene! I miss HongZai! I miss Nicholas Ng KH(Eh, just to make you happy ah, lol and I don't remember your chinese name so so sorry I bet you don't know mine, too right. Heh, so deal).
I know I act like a lamer now. But I seriously got nothing interesting to blog today. I need rest.
This is the game that I've been playing for the past few days. Virtual Villagers: The Lost Children. Four villagers died in my previous tribe so I restart over again this morning. Haha. It's been ages ago since I last played a computer game. The villagers continue to learn and grow even when my laptop is off, it's not a online game by the way.
This year my mum is teaching the afternoon session, or should I say this is the first time my mum is teaching the afternoon session. Oh for people who didn't know it, yea my mum is a teacher. I'm not trying to talk about my mum here. But this is related to what I'm going to talk about. Normally, our family dinner is cook by my mum as she will reached home by 6pm everyday. But this time, she will only be back after 9pm.
This evening, I received a phone call from my dad asking me for a favor which he needs my help to fried the prawns and sotongs(squid). I decided to help him since I got nothing better to do(It's raining heavily with thunder, so as usual, Astro no service, and I don't dare to sit in front of my laptop cos who knows the thunder strike it and my face burns!).
So, before you fried anything, you've to put some-fried-flour to it, right? Trying to be smart, I didn't read the instructions given behind the package. I threw the seafoods inside a bowl and spread the flour over it. And next I light up the stove and one by one put in the prawns. It turns out to be weird, so without thinking, I picked up the package from the dustbin and read the instructions. Omfg. You need to put the flour in a boiling water with cooking oil before spreading it to the seafood and fried. So smart ho?
Me, trying to be smart again, was thinking; boiling water = water. So I poured some water onto the sotongs. The flour turn into some sticky flour so I guess this time I get it correctly. I tried frying a few sotongs first, and it was even worst than before. Then I quickly wash away the flour from the leftover sotongs and phoned my dad. He burst out laughing on the phone.
Hey people. Scroll back up and pause the music playing and rock this pictogame :D
College is starting in another three days, which means no more late night sleep. No more late night movie. No more late night supper. Cis~I wanted to have a look at the timetable again, but I just couldn't install the microsoft office to my laptop. Stupid CD. I think it's spoilt.
Well, I'm glad that I'm exempted from taking the LAN subject this term as I get B3 for my SPM's Bahasa Kebangsaan. No classes on Friday, fantastic! The lecturer for F&B practical is Mr.Sarthi again, thanks God. And I've no idea what subjects are we taking this term. And who is that lady that substitute Ms LayBee for my housekeeping practical? Hope that she's not a weirdo like Ms.Nancy(Oops!)
Oh great. The very first day of college, I've to wear restaurant's full uniform already. Who's the idiot that set my F&B/Kitchen practical on Monday? Stupid moron. Three more months before final exams(Term 1 and Term 2's subjects are also included). So, Janice, study please!
Every possibilities of failing the term is lingering around in my mind. I seriously don't want to retake it as the next intake for term 2 is on April, and the most important thing; I don't want to make my parents disappointed again. I'm going to be 20 this year, and don't you think it's disgracing yourself when you failed this term and retake the term with the eighteen years old junior? Shiit. Why every time I will only feel the regretfulness after I've done something? When will I changed to be a better daughter/girl? When will I get my lesson? Oh no, the feeling of sorrow over my own sufferings.
For every test, I will be telling myself; you're going to study for it to make sure you get excellent result. But when I started to open the books, flip the notes, my mind will start saying this; aiya, study later la. Then, in the end, facing the test without any revision at all. And I hate it when I am being taught by a lecturer that makes me feel that I'm an down-right asshole. Shitty lecturer makes the subject shitty to me, too.
Now, I'm telling myself to not skip classes, pay attention in class, being less talkative, sleep early every night, do revision often, LOVE MY LECTURERS(Great :D). Do you think I can make it? I'm starting to feel sorry for myself. I said there's no new year resolution for this year but now, I'm taking back my words.
My laptop just suddenly broke down this evening when I just woke up and wanted to check my mail. I tried to shut down, on it for more than ten times, tried to open the safe mood, but it didn't help at all. I had to reinstall and I lost all my files(photos, images, graphics, songs, quotes, everything!). It's a bad start for this year. But after a long pause of thinking, I'm not going to let this overcome my mood for facing this year. I want it to be better than the previous years (:
Yesterday, I was being forced to go for countdown which I had to drag my butt up from relaxing on the sofa watching the television. We went down at 10pm using the new highway(KL-Putrajaya). Seriously not many cars using that road as I can only see a few cars on the road. Reached Bukit Bintang at 11pm and only arrived home at 3am as there was a heavy traffic INSIDE times square. The building got only two exits when there are more than five levels of parking lot and only the B1 level's auto pay machines was use able. Ishh.
