Before and after.
(Click on picture to enlarge)

Photos that are photo-shopped really are deceiving. Nowadays, even a fat girl's photo can make it become slim by just editing it. This is technology. Very realistic.

And talking about people, I hate most of the adults. They are so hypocrite, two-faced and worthless. They just love to make others in trouble. Working experience has finally make me open my eyes and see the real world, the cruelty of the people. I am just a trainee, a going-to-be twenty years old girl, a girl that never worked before.. and yet people who's older than me ten years, twenty years and having so much of working experience in the hotel industry just love to give me troubles.

Don't ever think that I come across pitiful or naive. Yeah, I know. This is life. I should just bear with it and stop being so childish minded.

& I hate period )':

Happy Two Monthsary :D

So yesterday after work, went to see doctor and get myself a MC for today before I went down college to meet boyfriend. He fetched me at eight and we headed to William's for dinner. Then, he came my house to overnight. We had A&W for our lunch today and we caught the Superhero Movie at Alamanda. I rate it 4/5, a must watch movie. I laughed throughout the movie cos the guy is just such a black sheep. Bought Mango Delight from Secret Recipe before he sent me home. He has to go home early cos he need to fetch his sister somewhere.

I miss boyfriend already ):

P/S: I will try to upload photos in my next post to not make this blog dull. My readers are getting lesser and lesser.

It's Not Over by Secondhand Serenade

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over


Oh my blarddy god. I just love Secondhand Serenade cos John Vesely is so sexy hot, haha :D

I don't think I'm blogging anything.

So I just finish eating my Rocky (Chocolate biscuit sticks). I've waited for boyfriend to get back from dinner and online for more than an hour already. So slow lah!

Today, Kak Leha called the HR Department and I was informed that we, trainees will only be changing department after the Shell leaves, which means in two weeks time. So, two more weeks in housekeeping! Oh my bloody god. The manager asked us to be on the floor from next week. I hate rooms make-up lah! Hi toilet bowl T.T

30 more days left.

I miss everyone in college, and all the best for people who's going to resit for the papers they failed next week. Do all your best, so that I can see you in term 4 okayyy :D

He's back. Byebyebye.

Indescribable feeling of mine.

Surprisingly, boyfriend came at eight thirty. And he just went home not long ago. This is what I have always expected to happen. I am still so happy about it :)

By the way, I'm getting real bored in housekeeping department already. HR department has yet to contact me. It's Shell Week and starting next month, the hotel occupancy is 100% cos all our rooms are sold to the Shell Bhd. I don't know what function they're having in Malaysia, but I know they bring problems to us. They are freaking fussy people.

I heard from Miki that he has to work from 5am-5pm for two days cos the head of the department ask him to do them a favor. Twelve hours of working! I guess I've drop my idea of going to the Front Office :D

But I don't want to stay in HK lah! I also don't want to go F&B lah! Argh~ nothing satisfied me at all. I just want to end my training. It's so tiring.

You never get how I really wanted to meet you, you just don't get this bothered. Maybe I'm the one who don't understand things. Maybe I'm the one who always want things to happen like how I want it to happen.

You told me this morning that you'll be coming after work, and now you told me it's better to make it tomorrow. Do you know you're somehow bringing disappointment to me? I know, it's only a small, very small disappointment, but it just simply bring my mood down.

You've been tolerating with me after all those shitty arguments we had for the past two months. And I'm glad about it. That's why I prevent myself from getting mad at you about this. I'm trying to be a better girlfriend, and I hope one day you'll see my effort.

I just want to be the girl that changed everything, the girl that made a difference in your life, the girl that gives you a story to tell, the girl that makes you proud. Sometimes I sit there quietly, not making a sound. You think that I'm upset, but, on the inside, I'm the happiest girl alive. You know why? Because I have you, and that's all I need. There are times when I hate myself for making you heart broken, for making you hating yourself.

Just promise me that we will survive, that you won't give up on this relationship of ours. No matter what happens, no matter how hopeless things get. Just please, don't let me cry and left me alone like you did last night. I don't want to cut myself anymore...

Will you be reading this? That's not the point anyways.

Three more days to our second monthsary. Time doesn't mean anything. It's our love that means everything.

I love you.

Here In My Home.

Had an argument with boyfriend again over msn. Okay, I don't care if it's me who get mood swing easily, I don't f* care about it. Everyone knew I get pissed off with the tiniest thing, so who cares by the way? I ignored him and I came across someone's blog and listened to this song. Super duper nice eh? Pause the song playing on the left box, and play this youtube.



& it makes me wonder if Malaysians really can live together peacefully without any racist. What do you think?

Do fairy tales come true? Obviously they do, now that i'm with you.

Ten days without dad, ten days without mom, ten days without proper care, tens day without home cook meals.. it's pathetic but it's independence days eh? haha.

Met boyfriend at two thirty and headed to Midvalley to catch the movie, Drillbit Taylor. Another school bully movie. I rate it 3/5. Had our dinner at Steven's Corner, then boyfriend came to my house. Slacked until eleven. We watched the very first Resident Evil with my laptop.


I'm sooOoo sleepy alreadyy!

Maxwell Chua Choon Yu is totally loves!
I'm so in love with that stupid boyfriend of mine :)

Working has been bored these past few days. And I'm having blocked nose again. Anything I ate, no taste and I breath like a mouse. Parents are flying to China at one pm tomorrow. & I'm meeting boyfriend after that :D

Someone mistaken me as a foreigner again today. Damn. I just want to look like a Malaysian lah. But it would be better if they don't ask if I'm a filipino. Stuuuuuuuuuupiddddddddd ):

I'm so offended.

Never let the fear of oversucceeding get to you.

So today was my hotel's associates appreciation day. We got to enjoy lotsa foods in the Hot Shoppe from eleven in the morning to I-don't-know-what-time. We(obviously Bell, Miki, Jeff and me) went there for lunch, it's such a feeling of awkward when I saw the managers were actually cooking for us and served us. The hotdogs were freaking delicious, and I craved for the chicken wings :)

And I found out that there are a lot of woman wanna-bes (or should we just call them gay) in my hotel. Hotel people are just weirdos. Sometimes when I think about it, it really scares me. I wonder if other hotels have the same problem, too.

Anyhoo, boyfriend came my house to fetch me at seven thirty and we went down Sunway Pyramid to had our dinner at Kim Gary and caught The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian. I rate it 4/5 and I think the very first Narnia did better than this but still bravo! Oh yea, I watched the My Wife Is A Gambling Maestro the other day with my college friends which I gave it 3 stars. I just reached home not long ago.

My blog's really getting .......... sucks. Or maybe it has always been.

I seem to have lost my ability to write, my reason of being here. Sorry if my blog really bores you hardcore ):

Just because everything is different doesn't mean anything has changed.

I was supposed to wake up after ten cos Esther will only be fetching me at Bdr Tasik Selatan around eleven thirty but I was awaken by my dad asking whether I got enough money not since I'm going out with friends later. You know what I answered right, I will never say no to money. Even if I got enough, I won't answer, "Yeah enough". Who's so stubborn? Money running to your pocket and yet you shoo it away. I might be stupid but not that stupid lah, lol.

My parents bought two cars recently and the cars are arriving today. But none of it belongs to me lah. Parents changing cars. Mom said she will only buy me a car after she thinks that I can drive alone. Damn. Everyone in my family owns a car but not me. So pitiful, right? I just got my license not more than two months ago.

So yesterday, caught What Happens In Vegas with boyfriend. I rate it 3/5. No comment on the movie, haha. Might be watching Speed Racer with college friends later. I miss Rebecca, hope she's coming.

& I heard from Ms Jennifer that all of us is changing department in two weeks time. I wonder which is the next for me? Hopefully not getting split shift or it will just screwed my last month there.

I'm going down to meet boyfriend later. I'm so freaking tired and it's making me superb lazy to type further and uploading photos.

I'm getting my day off on Wesak Day. & I think I'm broke ):

P/S: One more week and parents are off to China for ten days. You think I'm happy about it? I don't think so cos I'm gonna get irritated for what to eat for my meals and who's going to do the laundry? I don't like them going for a vacation every few months lah.

Sometimes being too friendly will just lead to misunderstandings. Bangladesh and Nepalese give me a sort of eerie feeling. I just want to end my training soon and get back to college. At least I won't get this kind of situation. It still frighten me. I will never choose Putrajaya Mariott anymore. Never will I give a second thought.

"It's funny how we tend to hurt someone we love, considering the fact that it hurts us more.."

The only people that could ever hurt you are the ones you love because if it wasn't love, you wouldn't even care. I know I'm full of insecurities and disappointments, but I promise you that there's part of me worth keeping. & if you doesn't love me for what I am, if you try so hard to change me, then you ain't worth my crap.

I'm so depressed and frustrated, too bad it came from the person whom I least expected to give me this sort of feeling.

I'm so f worried.

Boyfriend's having skin rashes and itching. It's like almost all his body is itchy. Like gosh! Just hope he get better by tomorrow or I will just rush down to his house and pass him my cream. He's feeling so damn bad now, I truly understand how he feels right now cos I got high sensitivity to certain substances, and certain foods since I was born which sometimes really cause me to keep scratching my legs and my hands especially when my skin make love contact with pollens. Ok, in short, let's just call it allergy lah.

So, three days with supervisor, and today was the second day. Quite boring cos I was just following him the whole working hours, walking every part of the floors to do room inspection. Very tiring ok! My legs almost break into half.

I haven't do my one week report for my assistant manager yet. Damn. Working also need give her the damn report, stupid duh~ Last time Miki in the housekeeping department, she never ask from him leh? Shy shy ask from handsome boy is it? Hope you get into hell lah. Ask three of us (girls) to do it every Sunday. You thought my off day no need rest ah? Daughter of the bitch.


* Not uploading any photos today cos me very lazy to connect my phone lah. I need tido (sleep).

No matter how hopeless things get.

Her: I still don't understand why you pick me when you could have any other girl in the world.

Him: Cause baby in my eyes your the only girl in the world..

Aww.. so touched. I gotta go, I'm late for work.

Argh. Very super de tired lah! Housekeeping... housekeeping... T.T

Happy Mother's Day!

Bought this in One Utama.

I'm back from boyfriend's house and I am super duper tired, so I will just cut it short.

My eldest brother sent me down yesterday since boyfriend's car is still in the workshop. We thought of going Sunway Pyramid at first but his brother lent him the car so we went to One Utama to catch the movie, Slit Mouthed Woman. I rate it 2/5. Then we headed to William's for our late dinner at eleven.

I don't really like the movie, cos I found it funny more than scary. And the English translation was hardcore sucks.

So today, eldest brother picked me up from boyfriend's hse at four. Parents just reached home not long ago from Melaka. Might be going out with them later.

Work has been fine to me, not much of complaints. I haven't even start writing the one week report for my housekeeping assistant manager. Damn. If I couldn't answer her questions tomorrow, I will be in deep shit.

I miss working in the lobby lounge, it's so much of freedom there. But there is always pros and cons. Nothing's perfect but boyfriend is perfect to me =D

Still remember the photo on 7th May's post? If can't, scroll down and see. Spot the different already not?

Was counting the linens in the pantries from 12th floor to 6th floor for the inventory thingy yesterday. Damn tiring. Walk here and there for the whole 3hrs.

The views from the pantry.

I guess you know what is this eh? Don't know, ask me haha =D

This guest brought her own smelly pillow, damn cute lar.

And also she brought one pack of cigarettes. Is it bcos this is not sold in Msia? I don't know, cos I don't smoke =x

I can even camwhore during working hours. Haha.

No title.

I'm in a rush since my eldest brother is rushing me already. I'm going down to meet boyfriend and I won't be back until tomorrow. Will update later with photos k? Bye.

The greatest pleasure in life, is doing something people say you can't do.

Do you spot anything in this photo?

Today was quite boring. I was supposed to do room cleaning but ended up being asked to go up the 11th floor to help them clean the linen store rooms. Since all of them is guys, they didn't actually ask me to do things, I was standing at the alley most of the time watching them busying. Luckily Miki was with me, so we spent time talking and crapping. Miki was so lazy for not helping them, but we can't stand the humidity in the store room lah. I wonder how those people can bear with it. Maybe they got more lungs eh?

And I got hard time communicate with some of the staff in the housekeeping department. Especially those from Nepal, Bangladesh... They speak in weird slang. I need time to get used to it.

So when the clock strikes five, I was happily walking out the office cos another day has passed. I just can't wait to meet boyfriend this Saturday. I really do miss him alot already T.T

After work, I went to the lobby lounge to pass my evaluation form to the supervisor (currently there is no manager). I was talking to Loshigan, Star and Rona and when I started to talk about how I miss working there, and everything, I nearly cried. That time, I knew my tears will flow out anytime so I just bid them goodbye by saying that I need to go cos my brother is waiting for me at the loading bay already.

Is there any way to let me not being so sentimental?

At first you don't succeed, give up and go do something better.

I guess these days I will just let the photos do most of the talking. Sorry if my blog bores you. I'm so tired and my brain ain't working normally. Housekeeping is damn tiring, but somehow I'm enjoying it cos I got to learn new stuffs. I can finally write something useful in my report.

Girl, no matter how big our misunderstandings were in the past, remember, we will always be there for you. If he is dumb enough to walk away, be smart enough to let go of him. We love you, just please stop crying. You're making me cry, too.

Go buy yourself a life on ebay :)

Done more than fifteen rooms today. Time really pass like rocket. But very tired lah! I feel like bouncing to bed now. Good night.

Perfection or vanity?

I met boyfriend at Sunway Pyramid in the noon. We had our lunch in Kim Gary then we headed to the cinema to catch Iron Man. I rate it 3/5. Parents fetched me at eight. It's so hard when boyfriend don't have a car, can't go anywhere we want.

Boyfriend owed me Nachos the other day:

I bought Dunkin Donuts and mom bought Big Apple Donuts =.=

We write what is spoke, and speak what is written.

Today is my last day in the lobby lounge and I've started to wonder how things will go when I'm in the housekeeping department. I've started to miss all those great people I met the entire three weeks working there and I'm gonna miss every single shit of them. No, I'm not gonna cry. I hate to be sentimental. Shit.

So nowadays the occupancy in our hotel is very low, it's only 8% for today. Can you imagine a five star hotel with only around 100 rooms sold? I only see staffs walking around, not guests. Might be because of the fifteen days maintenance work in our lobby.

We covered everything bcos our bar is just beside it and we need to avoid the glasses and everything from the dust. The guests who came over always ask, "Is the bar closing down?" It's like so embarrassing lah please, but not that I care anyways.

In June, there are few days that our hotel is having full occupancy. No rooms for walk-in guests. Hopefully by then I won't be in the housekeeping department anymore. If not, I will die doing room checking and room cleaning.

I did hot chocolate on Friday:

Tada! Nice isn't it? Nobody teach me how to do it ok, I figured it out myself cos I was way too bored. All of a sudden, I feel so proud of myself. Ha ha ha!

I need to go for my dinner now.

Fucked up day.

Today is the worst day for the year 2008. Woke up early in the morning and had an argument with my mom before going out. Supposed to meet up boyfriend at two but he got in an accident. Glad that he's fine. And I'm so glad that I've great friends out there. Bell purposely came from her house to met me up and comforted me. And she even accompanied me to had my breakfast + lunch + dinner at Kim Gary and I bought a surf pants for boyfriend as a present from Body Glove.

Bell drove me to his house at around seven plus, and then fetched both of us to Sunway Pyramid before she headed home. Wanted to catch a movie with him but Iron Man full house and all the nice movies were very late ones. Couldn't catch it cos boyfriend doesn't have a car now and parents are fetching me at eleven. So we went for late dinner, and then his friend picked us up to go college's 7th floor for pool. Argh~ it's gonna be hard for us to meet up for the entire period of his car in the workshop for two weeks T.T

Although today started off badly but it ended great. Cos it makes me realize I've worth-knowing friends which will be there when you needed them. And knew that boyfriend is so happy to see me eventhough he's really fucked up with no car, and mom is talking nicely to me when I reached home :)

Hope tomorrow will be a better day. I love boyfriend. I just love him.

Apparently God hates gay people. That's why I'm not God.

I'm getting off day tomorrow. & I think I'm catching the movie, Iron Man. I hope it's not full house, just please. But remember girl, it's labour day. It's public holiday. It's going to be pack of people and cars on the road. The movie better be great not sucks to core or I'm gonna sue the director, as if I can. Ha ha.