Happy Three Monthsary.

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So yesterday I met boyfriend at one. We headed to Midvalley wanting to catch a movie there but it's so freaking packed, the queue was like omzgzxXx. Then we changed our mind and went to One Utama. It's not like the usual Sundays. I've no idea why everywhere was packed with people.

We caught Doomsday at four thirty. I freaking rate it 5/5. Very very nice, scary and disgusting. Believe me, you won't regret catching it in the cinema if you were to like horror and action movies. We had lamb kebab for our tea time at Kebab King. Must try, with additional cheese okayyy. I'm craving for it already. Damn yummy :D

After movie, we went to his friend's farewell party. Had barbecue then boyfriend sent me home at one in the morning.

Oh yeah, did I mention that my elder brother got himself a new pet? Mices. Fuck cute I tell you, but I'm not going to touch it, ha ha. It just bite my mom's finger that day.



I hate period! Damn.

Finally...

I skipped work yesterday and boyfriend came over after his lunch. We had Kenny Roger's for my late lunch at Leisure Mall.

Oh yea, I caught Made Of Honor on I-don't-remember-when. I rate it 3/5. Not that nice afterall. I wanna watch Doomsday! The trailer is so damn cool. I hope the movie is nice. I wanna watch Get Smart, too. The Nanny Diaries, too! Run Fatboy Run, too!!! I just hate when every year the great movies all come out in summer. Then during the end of the year, no movies. Damn. Can't they just standardized it?

Well, so yeah! Training is finally over. And one more week before the next term starts.

Goodbye Putrajaya Marriott Hotel and hello Taylor's College :)



Did I mention that I'm totally broke?

If petrol cost the same as water.

I wonder how good will life be if we don't have to care about anything. I just want to meet him, but no he's not meeting me tomorrow even after all those talks, I just don't know how to tell him I want to meet him badly. Hearts are usually broken by unspoken words. Now I understand.

All I'm hoping now is him calling back and said he knew how much I missed him. But no, I doubt it's going to happened.

I won't go to work tomorrow. My final decision.

If we were neighbors.
It would be great.

It's like finally... boyfriend is back. He called me right after his plane landed, and I really miss his voice. His parents just pick him up from the airport so I'm waiting for another 30mins or so for him to reach home.

I'm meeting him tomorrow after work. I just can't wait.

I dreamt of ghost again. Damn.

I woke up with fear, clinging to my bolster.

Usually I would call up boyfriend but this time I couldn't.

Then I slept back, then the next thing I knew.

I dreamt about boyfriend.

&& It chased away my fears.

Now that I knew, no matter how far he is.

Anywhere, anytime, any moment.

He's always there to protect me.

Finally, I've found someone like him.

I've been blessed though.

In exchange for the heartaches that I have encountered
before I met him.

A little disappointment in me.

Boyfriend smsed me not long ago and tell me that his flight back to Malaysia is at three in the morning on 24th June, Tuesday. I thought he will be back tomorrow evening. I thought today would be the last night going to sleep without his late night calls. It's a little disappointment in me, I cry out again looking at the message. Why he has to leave me here so long?

Do you know exactly how is it feels when you're anticipating waiting for that moment, and it just slipped away right through you? This is how I feel now.

I can't stop crying, crying as I'm typing all this.

The tears of how much I missed him.

It's just Barney who accompanied me these four nights when he is enjoying himself in China. Another two nights without him, without his calls.

I hate you ):

I miss you.

Something is going to happen, it's that weird feeling you get out of no where. I don't know if it will be good or bad, but something is going to happen, I just know.

I was filling up my cup with water so that I can take my antibiotic, and I just don't know how I just lose the grip and the cup dropped and broke into a few pieces. The cup has been together with me since I moved to this house four years ago.

Is it a sign to a bad day today? I'm starting to hate my life now. Luckily I still have him to hang on.

I'm off to work.

Congratulation, you broke me down.

Friends, friends, friends... I can't believe I just cried because of the damn thing. I'm supposed to be strong when I faced it. Why do you have to act pity and snatch my bbf? I don't mind you telling others shit, but not to the one who's I'm close with. It really feels like thousand daggers to my heart. What am I supposed to do now?

Why do I have to face it all alone by myself?

I wanted to send smses to boyfriend to tell him what I am facing now. But it all goes to the drafts. Like I stated before, I'm not going to spoilt his trip just because of myself. I care about him more than anything else.

But I really need boyfriend ):

I just have to wait.

I want you back from China.

It's not the usual us, it's really not.

Boyfriend only sent me ONE sms today. And he said he bought something for me and he just won't tell me until he get back in Malaysia and surprised me with it. I'm happy cos it's only the second day and he actually buy something for me already. He's always such a loving boyfriend.

He's having fun over there.

& I'm missing him badly over here.

I cried, and I cried, and I cried just because I really miss his all.

I'm so proud to call you my boy.

It costs boyfriend RM2 to send me a sms, and costs him RM4 per minute to call me. I doubt we will be talking over the phone this six days. I highly doubt so.

I'm not supposed to be here cos it's bed time for me as I need to wake up at seven. But I cried on my bed. I don't know why I just miss him so much, that much. I'm not going to tell him this, because I'm not going to spoilt his first trip to China.

Right at this moment, I just want to tell him how much I love him. How much he meant to me. How much I treasure him. And apologized for all the arguments we had.

I miss him badly, the tears just won't stop.

I'm gonna hug Barney tightly to sleep now. G' night.

1st day without you here.

Boyfriend's in the plane flying to China.

I miss him already.

I know it's only six days. I'm just being sentimental. I tried so hard to not cry when he called me just now. I act to be happy cos I know if I cried, he won't be enjoying his trip and keep worrying about me back here.

Maybe I'm just used to have late night calls from him, maybe I'm just used to chat with him in the msn throughout the night, maybe I'm just used to have morning calls from him, maybe I'm just used to have him sms me almost every hour, maybe I'm just.. maybe.

I feel so separate from him yet so near.

This is so not right.

Being with you feels like heaven,
Being without you feels like hell.

So boyfriend came my hse at five. Then we headed to Alamanda at six. Had McD for our dinner and watched The Incredible Hulk. I rate it 5/5. You must catch it in the cinema cos it's like so seldom of me rating a movie full stars. HAHAHA!

And I wonder why bad characters in all movies are always so ugly and the main characters being so cute and makes you drool?

I'm not saying The Hulk is handsome, but it's like awww.. so muscular. Haha.

Boyfriend's leaving for China in another 21 hours. I don't want him to go but it's not that I've any choice. I just hope he go in one piece and be back in one piece, too. Oh no, please say I'm not crying over this. Damn,

It's only six days.

Baby, promise me you'll sms or call me when you're there ):

"When a person tells you you're not good enough, that's when you know you're better."

Simply because they are jealous of you. Who cares if you think I sucks? I don't give a damn. I admit I am ugly, but at least I look better than you. Bahahaha...

Okayy whatever lah. Boyfriend coming to my hse later, can't wait to see him :D

Oh by the way, I'm on medical leave. Nothing major. Just having bad flu. The main reason is.. I'm lazy to go work.


HAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHA!

My fringe is yucky.

This webcam photo capture was taken two weeks ago. Haha

Today, my mom insisted me to go for straightening. And I hate my hair now especially my fringe. It looks so thin ):


See! Boyfriend forced me to open webcam to let him see the fugly me.


You can laugh.

Bye.

Happy Father's Day.

The night before the previous day I slept for only one hour cos I'm having extreme pain pertaining to my stomach. Woke up at seven in the morning and went to work. Since I'm working half day on Saturday, I met boyfriend after that cos we're not going to meet today bcos it's Father's Day. A day spending with my family.

Boyfriend fetch me in college at three, then we headed to One Utama and bought the tickets for The Happening. I rate it 2/5. The first few minutes of the movie was great but not for the rest of it. I should just said it's indeed a story without content and conclusion. Very sucky.

Before we watched our movie at six, we went Fish&Co. for our late lunch. Then we head Blackjack Coffee House (I'm not sure about the name as it's my first time there) in Centrepoint for our dinner. The foods were nice.

He sent me home at around ten, and I fell asleep in his car. I was wayyyyy too tired, I shall say cos it's so not easily for me to fall asleep in the car. I was supposed to chat with him in msn throughout the night but I couldn't make it, and I can't even remember I picked up his call to say I'm sorry. Really, not until I checked my calls log in my phone and not until he told me that he did called when I was angry at him in the morning when he didn't even sms or call me the day before.

That is really freaking me out. Oh my god. And I dreamt about ghost last night. Damn.

That's how I survived in human resources department. I look so fugly, okayy unglam in that photo. But whatever lah.

HR Department.

Well, so life in this department has been so far so great. Nothing much to do. Miki has yet to change to another department so he's there with me. Haha. At least I've someone to talk to. Almost everything, yeah, can say everything in HR are all private and confidential so we can't really do much there.

I just help to file in the leaves taken by the associates, go to the pigeon hole to collect and send letters, key in the part timers form, picking up the calls, and doing all those simple jobs.

16 more days!

7 more days and boyfriend is leaving to China for vacation ):

3 more days and I'm meeting my superb lovely boyfriend :D

I'm glad things turn out better after the talk on the phone for three hours last night. I'm glad that you still bother to call me up, apologized and beg me to stay. It's not that I want all those things, just that at least I knew that you can still put aside your pride.

I just hope you keep your promise this time.

I hate the inflated feeling of pride in your superiority to others. You're just too ego. I never give up. But finally you broke me down, I hope you're happy.

I just have to learn to bear with it for the rest of my life.

I've stop arguing with you in msn, and you keep talking and talking. All the words, breaking my heart. I just don't know what to do anymore.

I hate myself. Yes, I hate myself so much. And I just can't let you go because I love you more than anything would do. I just have to sit there alone, calming myself down. I know things going to be real hard, but I will still be there hanging on cos I want you forever. No one to turn to cos the only person that can make my tears stop rolling down is only you, and yet...

I hate myself.

I hate myself.

I hate myself.

Not a million tears could mend my heart, because I've cried.

I just love weekend :D

As the usual Sundays, met boyfriend at college around two then we headed off to One Utama. We bought two movie tickets and the cashier was like smiling to us and said, "Enjoy your movies". Hahaha. We watched Prom Night at three. I rate it 3/5. Brittany Snow and Scott Porter makes a good pair in this movie. Awesomeee :D



Boyfriend said the character Donna in this movie looks like me, hell no, I'm not talking about the appearance. I knew she's wayyyy prettier than me. It's about how I was afraid of losing him. If you watched this movie already, you will know what I'm trying to say here. Well, luckily her uncle and aunt survived, if not, she will like lost everyone she loves? Her boyfriend died in the end. So saddening.



After the movie, went Fish&Co for our early dinner then watched Kung Fu Panda at six thirty. I rate it 3/5. It's an interesting one, but I don't think I laugh throughout the movie like how I heard from people. Maybe I was tired, oh well, maybe. Went Asia Cafe to meet his friends at nine, then went Subaidah to meet the rest of his friends. I just reached home not long ago.


That's roughly about my day.

I wonder how's my first day in Human Resources Department tomorrow.

Here I come!

Today is my last day in the housekeeping department. And I'm going to the HR department next Monday. I'm glad yet sad. The good news is that I can wear my own formal wear, and it's not a must for me to tie up my hair while the bad news is that I've to work mostly until six )':

But still I'm happy about it! Cause I somehow love to work in the administrative department.

I wonder why I don't have the feeling like crying like when I leave the lobby lounge. The reason is very simple. The people in housekeeping is all dumbasses, I don't like them.

Anyway, I went out with my elder brother to Alamanda at night. I bought myself four pieces of blouse which costs me a bomb. Spent nearly RM500 but it's worth it lah. Cos I've to wear those formal blouses like everyday?

It's my off day tomorrow! Yipppieee.. meeting up college friends, and maybe boyfriend is tagging along :D

I can't wait to meet him ):

Tiresome.

I am depleted of energy, I can just instantly fell asleep right after I hit the bed and I just had two hours of nap before boyfriend woke me up. I asked him to do so cause I want to chat with him the whole night in msn until 12, just simply because I want him to be the last person I talked to every night and the first I talk to every morning. Okayy, if you're dumb, you won't get what I'm trying to say.

Working has been quite great for me these days cause I'm assigned to be the clerk in the housekeeping office. Paperwork to be done and I'm always the operator. Picking up all those calls from the room attendants to report defect and valuable items that guest leave in their rooms for security reason. Nothing much. Just very tiring.

A sudden feel of having cereals. I want Honeystar!!

Petrol cost increased.

Actually I'm very tired and never thought of blogging until my off day but this news really get me shocked and I wanted to voice out my opinion. As I know, the economy of our country is currently down, which I hope it won't turn out like in the year 1997. Why the government has to increase the cost of the petrol? And yet they are not increasing our salaries. It's like, putting a burden on your shoulder. With this kind of situation happening every year, I highly doubt our citizens will ever live in a wealthy style.

Maybe the government has their own point of view and problems, but increasing the usual rate of RM1.92 to RM2.70 is totally omfg. I know I don't own any car yet, I don't have to earn money to feed my family, but I'm feeling so unsatisfied for everyone. Bah!!

Pam petrol let our cars eat, we no need eat lah!

Enough of that. No use of complaining. People, faster go fill up your petrol tank until full before midnight. I heard that the petrol stations are packed of cars. Wow.

Anyway, I caught Long Khong(is it spelled this way?) yesterday with boyfriend. I rate it 3/5. And I also watched Someone Behind You. This movie totally sucks big balls and the title don't suit the story. A waste of time and money. We had Carl's Junior for our dinner and he sent me home at eleven.


It's public holiday this coming Saturday but I can't get off for that day cos it's still Shell Business Week. Damnit. The security is very tight in our hotel nowadays, just because of the Shell's lame Safety Campaign. Let's just cut the story short. One of the organizers, said the flowers in our new ballroom is not safety. FLOWERS? Is it a monster flower like in the movie, can eat people? He wants us to move it away and replace it with safety-flowers. That is the coolest thing I ever heard.

And all the Shell people use HP's laptop. HP's fans! & why in the hell they love to leave their valuable things like cash, cellphones, ipods, PDAs, things that they can carry in their pockets, and yet they leave it in the rooms and blame people when they lost it? I never leave those things in the room whenever I am away from the hotel. You should take care of your belongings not blaming others when you are the one who never take care of it. Okayyy, I'm being bromidic. Just that this case happened in our hotel not long ago. Just please open your freaking eyes and see the world lah. Did our people live peacefully with no crimes? Think about it.

I am still wondering which is my next department?

23 days left for training to ends.